User blog:Owenandheatherfan/Taking a Break

Hi, everyone.

I'll try to make this short because I know most of you don't care. I've been petty depressed lately, and I dont know why either. The wiki has stopped being fun for me, and honestly, going on here just saddens me because I think of it ending or dying or everyone quitting. Everytime I go on wiki chat, I always feel left out (it's not your fault guys, again, I'm just depressed) and so I leave a minute later unless I'm in PM with Toad. However, school has just started for most of us, including Toad, so he spends less time on Wiki Chat, and as a result, I feel lonely most of the time.

I feel like my fanfictions will never start and that no one cares about them. And when I find a person who does like my fanfictions, I feel like I'm disappointing them by not starting it, which makes me even sadder. Writing S:CW feels like a chore because I want to make everything perfect, and my drawings are horrible. I want someone to draw the pictures for me but then I get rude and tell myself that no one is good enough. This isn't true, I'm just stupid.

I feel like leaving, but I wouldn't do that to you guys, I love you too much. As weird as that may sound, this wiki is kind of like a second family to me. But I can't take this anymore, so instead, I'll just take a break.

I'll be gone for about 1-2 weeks, focusing on my studies and dicking (I'm not cursing, that's an actual word FYI) around on Tengaged/EpicMafia. Now I feel like I'm rambling so I'll say one last thing. At the end of the hiatus, of I'm still depressed and I feel that the wiki is still boring or a chore, I'll be leaving the wiki permanently. If not, I'll come back.

Hopefully things dont get stale for me and I can return.