User blog:Bocaj910/Bocaj's 13th Birthday 4000th Edit Spectacular!

Prolouge - Purpose
I'm sure most people wonder, "What is my purpose? What was I put on this Earth for? Am I worth anything to anyone?" I, myself, asked that same question, and quite often, still ask that question now and then, when I am at my lowest of times. All my life (What I've lived of it so far, anyway), I had no friends, no one that would even put my excistence into consideration, no one that would make me feel needed. If anything, I had, or, honestly, have "friends" who treat me like I'm worthless, like I'm nothing. But no; I am something. I have a purpose in this world, and so do you. No one was put on this world by accident. This website was just my first step in finding what God (Sorry, if I mention religion at all, I just can't think of anything else to say to support my point) has planned for my life. This website, no, the kind users of this website helped me realize that even when I'm at the lowest times of my life (e.g. Parents seperating, redundant unlucky events, giving-in to temptation) I can always find a bright side. The majority of everyone here took a part in the journey of me finding maturity, hope, potential, talent, knowledge, and friends. Right here is where the end of one section comes, and the rest of my 4000th edit blog birthday spectular begins! Please hold for the applause, grab your tissues (Yes, now I say so, after an inspirational speech about purpose), grab some popcorn, put away the tissues, grab them again, and now, you read.

(P.S: Please forgive me, for I may have plenty of typos in the blog. This new computer doesn't have spell-check, and I didn't want to waste my time finding out how or even if I can turn it on)

Chapter One - Joining Wikia
Wikia, a enteractive series of websites each with a main subject, was always a favorite of mine. If I ever needed information on something, I would search something, and always make sure Wikipedia the Free Encyclopedia was in my search results. I never really knew that Wikia would cause a huge change of habit in my life, though I always had a soft spot for it... more or less. Ah, I remember when I first joined wikia, no, not as Bocaj, but as The drama. No, not the The Drama we all hated and loathed, in a sense, The drama I made two edits as. The difference? The drama/The Drama. I'm sure you'd have to be blind not to see that... of course. I lost interest as The drama, because I had remembered my hate for writing the moment before I created the page for "Total Drama Class". But, thank the lord, I rejoined as another user, when I came up with the premise for Total Drama Survivor; same rules, different characters.

When joining Total Drama Island Fanfiction Wikia I had absolutely no idea how the wiki worked. I was flabbergasted by how strange my page looked for my very [|first edit]. After some time, I posted the very first chapter of Total Drama Survivor, and, my very first reader/fan (As far as I know, someone could of always read but not commented) Sprinklemist commented on my chappy (Sorry TDIwriter, couldn't resist), and he said that he enjoyed it, and as time would go on, he would find the story more and more funny. And now, I talk about my good friend Gary...
 * Extra Info: I joined wikia as Bocaj910 because I had read Total Drama: Boney Island by a amazingly kind and caring user I would soon become very close friends with, and I felt as if I could write a story just as good... It was a delusion, what I imagined.

Special Thanks: Sprinklemist
Ah Sprinklemist, or as his friends call him, Sprink... or Sprinkle... or Sprinkly... or... let's just move on, okay? If I could describe Sprink in one word, I would say he is... helpful, in all ways. Sprink, unintentionally, helped me find one of my favorite hobby's, and possibly my calling, but I'll wait and see if the latter is a fact, or just a phase. Anyway, Sprink was my very first reader, and I couldn't be anymore greatful for that. If it wasn't for Sprinkly, I probably would of quit this wiki a long time ago. You see, whenever I'm at the lowest of times, Sprink was always there (Whenever he was there, I mean...) to talk to on Chatango. He is one of the few people I know that understands my main problem, the right way, and not the wrong right way, the right right way. You probably won't get what I mean unless you knew... Sprink is a great friend, and always gives great advice. He's kind, intelligent, respectful, a great listener, a great TDI-style artist, and a great writer. Sprink can be a little bit of a Simon Cowell at times, when giving feedback, but I find that as a compliment, for he's not harsh, but he tells us what we may need to work on with our stories. I'll be honest, when I first joined the wiki, I thought he was a really smart teenager, instead of an adult. XD

After a while, my spelling, grammar, artistry (TDI-style only, I suck at drawing anything else...), and overall writing abilities got better, but there was still one thing I needed to work on; maturity.

Chapter Two - Becoming A C-List Wikian
As Total Drama Survivor continued, I started to notice that Sprink was the only one that commented on the chapters, though, I now know that he wasn't the only one that read. Sprink told me that most script-stories (What TDS was at the time) weren't very popular on the wiki... I was surprised at the low amount of fans TDS seemed to have. I just ignored the fact for a while, and started drawing my characters, using Sprink's helpful how to draw female and male characters blogs.

For how long it took me to draw Leslee's first image, I say it looked pretty good. After Leslee, came Zan, then Kris, and so on from there. (Super Awesome Prize Rewarding Contest Thingy Hint #1: For those of you that read this entire blog, you get an advantage in this contest, which has a pretty decent reward. It's one word, and you have to guess it based on these hints. The first hint is, Sprinklemist) Remembering Sprink's words about script-stories long ago, I created Total Drama Smash Brothers. Now, this story marks the first time I wrote a chapter in narrative text. With TDSB, gained a new fan, Spenny. Now, I'm sad to say that I don't know Spenny enough to write an entire special thanks section for him, but I will say that he is a great friend, a great author, and from what I hear, just like Devon, he's very epic.
 * Extra Info: I find female characters much easier to draw, for some reason.
 * Extra Info: Originally, Total Drama Survivor had five sequals planned, Total Drama Cinema, Mansion, High, Yacht, and Planet, but now it just has two sequals planned, one of them already started.

Now, I began to get very depressed around that time, now realizing that I wasn't very famous around the wiki. I had been here since September, and with it now being December, I decided to make this blog just to see how many fans I had... Apparently, Shane and Author999 liked Total Drama Survivor. I was happy to see Sprink wasn't the only fan of mine at the time. Let me talk about Author999 first... He was a very great friend, and I enjoyed his two stories, Total Drama Mole and Total Drama Island II, though the latter might never be finished... He was a kind fellow, one of my earliest friends on the wiki. I don't know whatever happened to him... but I hope he's okay. Now, time to talk about one of my best friends on the wiki, Shane.

Special Thanks: Goldenshane
Shane, everyone's favorite dog. Shane was always a kind user, always. I remember reading the first few chapters of Total Drama Craziness, and to be honest, it wasn't the best... But once the story progressed, especially around the merge, Shane really progressed as a writer. To be honest, Shane is my second-favorite competition story writer, right below Sprink, and right above Spenny and TDIwriter. I'll admit, the quality of Total Drama: The Production might not be as good as the aforementioned writer's stories, but I like the way he develops his characters, and cleverly combines that with strategy. Anyway, Shane and I have a lot in common, probably the most of any other user here. Shane is never biased, but never harsh, either. He knows when and how to tell you that you need to work on something. If it wasn't for Shane, I don't know if I'd even be on the wiki right now... Shane will always be a part of my memory, always, but so will all of you. (Super Awesome Prize Rewarding Contest Thingy Hint #2: France)

Chapter Three - Lying, Chatango, and More Friends
Who was The Drama? Well, let me explain. He was someone I created to, originally, just start over on the wiki anew. As The Drama, I created 20 new characters, and started the story Total Drama: Totally Dramatic. When commenting on Sprinklemist's story Total Drama Reality as both Bocaj910 and The Drama, I revealed that The Drama was my "brother", and, as I would say much later, my twin-brother. Now, I wanted to know if Sprink even cared for me being on the wiki, so, as The Drama, I told him that Bocaj said he (I) wanted to quit. Sprink opposed me quitting, and, quite ironically, this blog was made, on Christmas, which wasn't the best day for me, supposedly making The Drama disappear forever... Please, read the comments. The fact the The Drama phrases were from me, I seemed pretty selfish back then... And this is where my social life on the wiki really began... It was January 3rd. Koops, my newest friend who had let Chrysanthemum and Ronnie join the original Total Drama: Heroes Vs. Villains, had some questions over the latest chapter. He asked me if we could just simply go on Chatango to chat about it, instead of talking back-and-forth on our talk-pages (Which is very slow on dial-up...) Well, after a while, I finally found the link. Me and Koops chatted for a while, and, I went to the group chat from there. What was my very first message on group chat? "Boo!" Yeah, I was trying to scare everyone with my creepy Nebulaness. (My avatar for Chatango was Nebula at the time...) It didn't work (Insert 'XD' here).
 * Extra Info: I decided to make The Drama quit for two reasons: I didn't want to have to write for two stories, and I didn't want to have to come up with lies anymore. I've changed a lot since then, eh?

Later that day, I came to the group chat for the second time, and it was only me, and two guys from the wiki I would soon become friends with, Kenzen and Dark. I gave them a little quiz over TDS, Dark won, but Kenny received the same prize, because I hated 'seeing' his sadness. I... Hardly drew any of the images I promised. I tried, guys, I tried.

Special Thanks: Kenzen11 and Darkdonpatch
These two guys are awesome! Though quite different, both of these users are nice friends to have around, Dark keeping a nice, random mood, while Kenny keeps everything fun. These two used to be close friends, but then we kind of drifted apart... It's not that I'm trying to ignore them, I just have been busy with other friends on the wiki, school, writing, reading, ect (I'm a busy 12... No, scratch that, 13 year-old). Sorry I haven't been much of a friend lately, guys. I'll try to do better.

In the middle of January, when checking the Featured Story page, I saw that a user, that I wasn't too familiar with, had supported Total Drama Survivor. This user's name was Fanfiction2010, or, Fanny. I really think he should change his username when the year ends... (Insert ':P' here)

Special Thanks: Fanfiction2010
Fanny is a great friend, he really is. Fanny and I have a lot in common, so he's nice to talk to on Chatango. While he can be a little rough-around-the-edges, in certain ways, he's overall a nice guy. I wish I could be more creative... Let's just say this; nearly every compliment you can think of fits Fanny. Oh yes, and he's a great writer, too.

Chapter Four - Becoming A Featured Author
And so, I talk about the experience of being a Featured Author, which is now Featured User. Well, if anything, The Drama was the only thing that made me feel bad, but overall, the feeling was great. (Super Awesome Prize Rewarding Contest Thingy Hint #3: Protection) Well... Since I've changed since then, I've decided to redo my Featured Author interview! Most of the same questions, new answers!
 * Extra Info: The Drama returned, still me, and supported Bocaj910 for FA, while opposing Sunshine. I still regret doing this.
 * Extra Info: As you can see in The Drama's [[User blog:The Drama/Im Back!|Im Back! blog, I tried to purposely mess-up on things like links, spelling, and grammar, just to make The Drama being Bocaj less believable.

Featured Author Interview
Bocaj: Are we ready for the interview?

'''Jacob: Of course, I'm always Reddy... Almost.'''

Bocaj: Right; how did it feel for us to be the very first underaged-FA?

Jacob: Well, I feel very honored, now that I think about it.

'''Bocaj: Oh yeah. We remember feeling very honored.'''

'''Jacob: Um, yeah... Why are you asking the questions? Bocaj won, not Jacob.'''

Bocaj: We go by Jacob now.

'''Jacob: Right... Anyway, back to what I was saying. I did feel honored. I really did prove that age doesn't matter when you have maturity, or, maturity compared to all the other 12 and 13 year-olds we have to go to class with...'''

Bocaj nods.

'''Jacob: Yeah. I guess so... We have very bad self-esteem, so we don't think I and you have very good maturity...'''

'''Bocaj: I'm confuzzled. You is I, I is you, we is I, I is we.'''

Jacob looks at Bocaj with a confused expression.

'''Jacob: Huh? How are you talking to me anyway? Are you The Drama?'''

Bocaj: No, I'm Bocaj.

Jacob: But I'm Bocaj...

'''Bocaj: And I'm Jacob. We're The Drama, as well, but he doesn't come here anymore... Onto the next question; who inspired I?'''

Jacob looks to the side and sees Sambo glaring at him and Bocaj, arms crossed.

'''Jacob: I think Sambo is onto our bad grammar... Anyway, Sprink was the one that inspired me, like most other wikians would say. He didn't mean two, though.'''

Sambo walks up to Bocaj and Jacob, looking angry.

'''Sambo: You mean 'to', not 'two'. Two is the number, to is---'''

Bocaj: We don't want to come up with any comedy for you right now Sambo.

Sambo crosses his arms.

Sambo: Fine.

Sambo walks off.

'''Jacob: Anyway, Sprink didn't mean to inspire me. When I read Total Drama: Boney Island, I just felt like making a story similar to it, trying to make it just as good. Heh, the original Total Drama Survivor was nowhere near as good... '''

Bocaj: Where's Waldo?

'''Jacob: Where did you come from?... Wait a second, now I get it.'''

'''Jacob grabs Bocaj, and rips his skin off, revealing Waldo. Jacob smirks.'''

Jacob: There's Waldo.

'''Waldo: Haha, nice job. What did you think when Nebula won Featured Character?'''

Jacob: Oh, well, I thought it was nice that she won something, yet again.

Waldo: Nothing funny?

Jacob nods his head no.

'''Waldo: Crap... We need this to be funny! Anyway, what's your best story, in your opinion?'''

'''Jacob: Hm... IDK. They all just started. XD. Yeah, I really just said the letters 'x' and 'd'. XD. No, that time I laughed. I have my own critisms of Total Drama Lost, that I need to work on, like the over-developing, but I like it overall. I have high hopes for Total Drama Survivor and Smash Brothers. Death and Roses... everyone, I know the first two chapters had their mistakes, problems, ect. '''

'''Waldo: Ect? What does EH-CT mean?'''

Jacob rolls his eyes.

'''Jacob: I mean ectera, oh, and sorry, this computer has no spell checqk, obviously. The Third-Person chapters of D&R will be much better.'''

Waldo: Sad that the interview's over?

'''Jacob: Um... that was quick.'''

Waldo laughs.

'''Waldo: No, I'm just messing with you. I wanted to see you cry, having such a short interview. Next question, what's your favorite story on the wiki?'''

'''Jacob: Non-competition, Life After Lies, competition, Total Drama Time Travel. Both had huge twists, cliffhangers, ect. I like that in a story.'''

Waldo: Why did you cancel Total Drama Island (Bocaj910's Way)?

'''Jacob: Well... I found it a little weird to write for them like I did, for some reason. I had so much development planned, but it just didn't fit the characters. I wanted to have my own characters, instead.'''

Waldo: Last question?

After a few seconds, Jacob looks around the interview room, feeling awkward.

Jacob: Um...?

Waldo: Last question?

'''Jacob: Uh... Yes?'''

'''Waldo: Correct! The interview is over! Nice talking to you, Jacob.'''

Jacob: It was nice talking to you too Waldo.

Waldo: Oh, I'm not Waldo, I'm---

Waldo pulls off his skin, revealing Geoff.

Geoff: ---Geoff.

Jacob: How random?

Sambo: You mean, 'how random.'

Did you like it? I hope you did, because I worked really easy on it. (It's a joke) Anyway, thanks to everyone that previously voted for me for Featured Author; Fanny, Reddy, Sprink, Author999, Dark, Shane, Boombox55, Spenny, Kenny, and... myself.
 * Extra Info: The Drama supported Bocaj for FA, marking the first time a user won FA, with one of the votes being from himself. Actually, I think this was the only time it ever happened...

Chapter Five - Finding Maturity
After The Drama's short return, he soon quit yet again, but this time, without any announcement. I tried my best to make everyone forget about him, but at times, they would remember. I felt very bad, about lying. The only other user that knew, at least, from me telling him (Many other users already knew, but never mentioned it), was Shane.

It was April First. After reading Sunny's Prank Blog, I swallowed my pride, prepared for cyber-shouting and fighting, and I did it, I made a blog explaining my lie. It felt bittersweet: I had no more reason to lie about it anymore, but some users were still hating on me. It was hard, but I was happy to find that all of the wiki, in the end, forgave me. This blog helped me mature, and, I became a better person on April Fools Day. Not many people can say that, so, I'm proud to be one of those few.

On May 16th, about a month later, people started talking trash about QOS again, saying things like, "If you are QOS, you suck." This inspired me to write Nobody Sucks, a short blog, but with a big message. No matter what anyone does, anything, whether it be murder, stealing, or just vandalism on a website, they do not suck, they just aren't very wise with their decisions. This day, was another big step in my maturity. I realized then, that Nobody Sucks, nobody.

Around early June, maybe late May, Sprink brought up the discussion of possibly bringing new admins to the wiki. Now, I had always wanted adminship, but not just for it itself. Let me explain; all my life I tried to find some place where I felt important, where I felt needed. Every time any chance would show up, I would always lose, never winning any award, or whatever it might be. I wanted adminship to feel important... Well, Sprink made his decision on June 11th... Shane, Kenny, and Spenny won, and I was kind of left alone at that moment, the only one left to weep, the only one that wanted it so badly other then the three, the only one who it actually meant more then just an admin on a website... I'm thankful to Shane, for offering up his adminship for my own sake, but in the end he remained an admin. I didn't mind, but it still hurt... Having been told no because of my age, yet again. Well, anyway, now that I'm 13, who knows what'll happen... Anyway, this really helped me mature, as well. Though, it would have been nice to win just once...

Special Thanks: Reddude
Reddy, a nice buddy of mine. One of the most laid-back wikians here, but he does know how to get a job done, and how to follow the rules. He's a fairly decent writer, and artist, as well. He has potential, only being of 12 years of age... like me, until now. He's like a younger brother to me, for some reason. He never gives very harsh critism, actually, he rarely even gives it. I need that sort of biased-agenda sometimes, when I'm feeling down. Reddy's a great guy to talk to on Chatango, always thinking of something funny to say.

Special Thanks: Gideoncrawle
While me and Gideon don't really talk much, as Gideon does not go to Chatango, and talk pages take time on my computer, he really is a very, very nice adult. After reading Legacy, I was flabbergasted at the quality of the story, the best we've seen on this wiki lately, from new users, in a while. I personally think Gideon is the best author on the wiki, though, he's only as good as he is because of his high knowledge, vocabulary, ect. I dream that my potential in writing is even a fraction of Gideon's ability. What do I thank Gideon for? For the high-class stories, for the helpful critism, for reading my stories in the first place, and for being a kind and respectful user.

Special Thanks: The Anonymous User
Alike Gideon, I'll admit that me and TAU have had little interaction on the wiki, and I'm saddened by that. TAU is a nice user, very nice with his critism, but he always gets his advice through, and while he may not be an author on the wiki, I don't think any less of him. I really hope, and by hope, I mean, I know TAU will win User of the Month.

[edit] Apologies To The Wiki

 * 1) First of all, I apologize to anyone I might not have mentioned in this blog. I know what it feels like, to be ignored. I don't want you feeling this way, but I was writing this blog with little time yet, and it would hard, to mention every user here and there. Please, forgive for this. Everyone here is my friend, no one is less important then another.
 * 2) Secondly, sorry to anyone I may have hurt on the wiki, in any way. I know, I had some problems, that led to certain users having problems trusting. I know I've messed-up, and I cannot say that I won't anymore, because I will; no one is perfect. I hope these certain users can find it in their heart to forgive me.
 * 3) Lastly, to anyone I may have ignored. I dislike seeing favortism, and I know what it feels like to want to be that favorite, that one that everyone comments on. Please, I'm trying my best to give equal attention on here, but it's hard, at times.

Epilogue - My Time To Shine
I've had a great year on this wiki. I've made a lot of friends, became a pretty decent writer, and even found a lot of maturity. If it wasn't for you guys, I would still be a very sad soul. This blog is the new beginning of Bocaj, and this is my time to shine. Everyone, you may seem helpless out there, feeling like you're nothing, or feeling like you're too much, either way, your time to shine will come, you just have to have patience. I myself go through hardships nearly everyday, but I never give up, and I never go against my morals 100%. You weren't born just to die, you were born to fulfill your purpose, whatever it may be. You and I aren't mistakes, we are human beings, each with our own unique personality traits. Those that mock others for their race, appearence, weight, personality, awkwardness, religion, or sexuality, shame on you. You should respect others, even if they don't respect you. People are born of their own appearence, personality, and race, so mocking them for something they can't control, absolutely shameful. Everyone has their own struggles, their own problems, their own beliefs, and you have no right in changing that. Though, for those of you who are guilty of these deeds, do not fear, I do not hate you. This wiki has showed me that, and I couldn't be anymore grateful. I will always love all of you. Cheers to another year of greatness! :D

And... It's my birthday! Yay! I'm of legal wikia age!

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