User blog:Toadgamer80/An Explanation

OK, so I feel like I've been acting weird and not as nice and easy-going as I usually am, so I just feel like clearing stuff up.

As most of you probably know, my parents are not exactly normal. Like, I don't mean dysfunctional, like I don't get physically abused or anything. They just have really weird ideas on how to parent, I guess.

So, first of all, my dad has this software that blocks my iPod from using the internet, Twitter, Facebook, and basically everything except apps, Notes, and that kind of stuff. He leaves it blocked ALL DAY on weekdays, even after I've finished my homework, and will only turn it on for a half hour at night. (That's why I'm basically INV on weekdays.) So, I really just do homework and watch Survivor on weekdays, but I also do a lot of other stuff in my room, like I read once in a while, and I draw. However, my dad NEVER seems to realize that. Never. He has this idea that all I do is watch Survivor on weekdays.

...I watch three episodes at the most on weekdays. That's 2 hours. I spend about 1 1/2 hours on homework, and I'm home for 8 hours on weekdays. So, that gives me 4 1/2 hours to do other stuff. Like, I'll talk to my sister sometimes, fool around with old stuff in my room, fap, draw, read, and my dad never cares. He thinks all I do is technology, and he likes to compare me to a drug addict.

On the weekend, my parents give me four hours a day to use the computer. Only four hours. I'm up for about 15 or 16 hours on weekends, doing just other random crap. I always manage to come back on my iPod, but it's laggy, and I hate chatting on iPod because I can barely PM and it autocorrects every other word. My dad always says he's gonna block me after I finish my four hours on computer, but he never does. I honestly think he purposely leaves it on so he can have an excuse to yell at me the next day, which he frequently does.

Today, we were gonna have an RP on the IRC, which most of you know. I had done three and a quarter(?) hours today (Oh, and my dad also likes to stretch the time and make it out to be more time than I've actually done, like I'll do 2 hours and he'll say I have a half hour left or something) and I asked my dad if I could RP. He told me I could, and then the RP got canceled. Well, I really knew it was too good to be true. Here's what happened after.

"Dad, why do you let me only do 4 hours?"

"ALL YOU DO IS YOUR IPOD AND YOUR COMPUTER. THAT'S ALL I EVER SEE YOU DO. YOU NEED TO BE A MORE WELL BALANCED INDIVIDUAL."

"What do you think I do on weekdays? You only let me use my iPod for a half hour."

"YOU WATCH SURVIVOR, THAT'S ALL YOU DO" (like I said earlier, that's not the case.)

"SO NO YOU CANNOT DO MORE AFTER DINNER"

"YOU CAN'T USE COMPUTER ANYMORE TODAY BECAUSE YOU NEED TO BE MORE WELL-ROUNDED"

The best part is, my dad does nothing but computer. Sure, he uses it for work, but he finishes work at 6:30 each night and just fucks around on Facebook for the entire rest of the night. It makes him look like a huge hypocrite. He also likes to call me a drug addict, because supposedly all I do is iPod and computer on weekends. Oh, and also my sister is allowed to watch TV or use the computer as much as she wants, while my parents don't care.

BTW, my mom is basically just The Dragon of my dad. She does nothing but repeat crap my dad says, but she's usually more flexible. Anyway, another reason my parents apparently don't let me use much computer is because of my grades.

My grades aren't bad. My lowest grade last semester was a B+. Did my parents care? No. They just said I could have tried harder, and I had THE BEST GPA I'VE EVER HAD. And they didn't give a shit. They're never satisfied. Like, if I get a good grade on a test, my dad will seriously just say "Great job" and that's it. Meanwhile, if I do badly on a test, which happens sometimes, he will yell at me for an hour about my study habits. Yep.

(right as I type this, my dad just came in and yelled at me. "Zeke, you're supposed to be off the computer. You were supposed to be off an hour ago." He never even asks me nicely, it's always straight to yelling, and while my mom lets me stay on if I have to finish something and doesn't mind if it's a little past 4 hours, my dad yells the second the 4 hours happens. They also continuously remind me "Zeke, you're only supposed to do 4 hours today, remember?" over and over, and that really pisses me off)

So, yeah, my parents are never satisfied with my grades. My dad is a douche. I don't hate him, obviously, since he's my dad, but I feel like we argue way too much. Like, obviously sometimes I'm the cause of the argument, but I just... I don't know. There's not much that I like about my home life. I'd go outside, but it's all nasty and snowy outside, and I don't have any friends outside school. I'd go to the library or something, but since it's so OOC of me to go to the library (my parents are convinced I haven't read a book in years) they'd know something was up. And also, I don't have any relatives in the state, which really just sucks. And I can't drive, so no way of transportation.

So, yeah. There's more to this, but I don't want to get into it, and I'm really sorry if I've been a douche to anyone (It's probably just me). I haven't felt suicidal or anything, or even depressed, just kind of grouchy the past few months. Hope you guys just read this and... I don't even know what to tell you guys to comment on. Just... yeah.

(oh and I'm not quitting the wiki... yet. My life isn't THAT bad)