User blog:Owenandheatherfan/The story of how I ruined my almost-flawless reputation

Uh, hello.

Over the past year or so, I've sort of destroyed my original reputation as "that cool guy who's pretty funny", and instead replaced it with "that immature guy who lags chat and decreases the quality of the wiki." Look, I really am sorry guys. Last night, if you were on chat, you may have seen all that drama that occurred. And who started it all? Me. When you think of the word "spam", let's face it, you most likely think of me. When you think of the word "sockpuppet", you most likely think of me. I'm not trying to say that I'm the only one who hurts the wiki like this, but in all truthfulness, most of it is me.

I'm pretty stubborn. I refuse to admit that all the things I do are not hurting the wiki and like Reddy said, I just don't have compassion for how other people feel. And to top all that off, I believe my assumptions are reality, when I need to realize that the way I perceive things isn't always true. I'm aware of the fact that I was just completely melo-dramatic yesterday; I totally lashed out at people and played victim because I didn't want to admit the fact that I was wrong.

It's kinda sad, really. I was looking at some of my older blogs, and it's weird how much I've changed. I'm honestly just completely disappointed in myself, and I know it's not me, but it's just the things I do.

I know most of you are probably rolling your eyes right now, but I am being genuine. I'm not trying to be manipulative or get sympathy, and I'm not going to just go back to spamming five minutes into chat. I'll also work on trying to actually engage with people more on the wiki, and I'll be working really hard on my fanfictions from now on.

I suppose actions speak louder than words. Guess whatever I do from now on will prove how authentic I'm being.

In fact, don't even comment about this. I don't want you guys to think that I'm just doing this to play a victim or whatever. Talk about something else, like um... what's your favorite season of Total Drama and why...?