User blog comment:Gideoncrawle/5th Wikiversary: Times Have Changed/@comment-3483396-20150209062145

It's sad to see a titan fall, but sometimes we have to accept the truth. A fad is a fad. Total Drama is meeting the end of its time, and less people, and even less content distributors, care about the show and what it offers. As for me, I'm not able to continue far on my fanfics on this wiki any more, and the sad thing is, I knew this would happen eventually. It always seems to happen every time I try to write a story.

To tell you the truth, TV shows in general are losing their appeal to me. I'm not saying anything bad about them; on the contrary, I still like more kid-oriented shows like Gravity Falls and Steven Universe, and I'm even becoming a wiki chat regular for the latter, but I feel like I'm falling behind and am rejecting new and bold concepts like an old man clinging to his old habits, and I don't want to feel that way. I actually want to welcome new ideas, but I can't seem to do it. (This video link features me venting on this issue.)

Another thing: I've been trying to make reviews for TV shows and movies, but doing so is making me cynical of stories I want to enjoy, and unwilling to watch the show due to having to put the effort of pushing out my thoughts during my already-busy schedule. I already wrote scripts for a few videos, but I can't seem to get them out there. If you already know of my notorious lack of not knowing anything beyond TDPI Episode 9, it's because I can't seem to write my thoughts on the season accurately. I know reviewing is hard, but... this is ruining all entertainment for me.

I don't want to end up a shell of my former self. I have ideas for big stories with interesting worlds and topics and a renewed concept of the multiverse, but life is finally taking its toll. At the age of twenty years old, I am finally broken. And I can't take this anymore.