User blog:Jkl9817/Uh... hi there

So, I'm just gonna cut to the chase.

I am thinking about coming back here. By thinking, I mean I have written a few more chapters of Total Drama Socially Awkward out of boredom/nostalgia, and decided it could be fun to continue it (if that's even the right word, for I didn't actually start it). Also, I kind of miss you guys -- even though I do have good friends IRL nowadays; how amazing is that?

Additionally, my writing career is almost starting to show signs of maybe someday being able to nearly take off (I hope saying that doesn't jinx it), and for whatever psychological reason, I realized that even if I win a Nobel Prize for Literature, I won't be able to find personal fulfillment unless I manage to accomplish my old FU+FS+FI+FC+FQ dream. >_> I know I've got a long way to go (it will take me quite some time to even get back into the community properly), but hey, I can dream. Oh, and please don't think my whole coming back is merely about that rather shallow ambition. I also missed talking to you guys quite a bit. (Any new memes I should be aware of?)

Speaking of which, the Featureds have been a little slow lately, haven't they? I know they are an uneven thing, but last time I checked most of the categories had something like two nominations. Is there any particular reason for that? Is the wiki dying? :O (In which case my return is the single most epic fail in the history of Western society). And also, I'm gonna need you to fill me in on what I missed over the past year. Who disappeared as well? I need to know which of my subscribers to stop notifying. (As if I had any subscribers. Ha ha. (Actually I do, but only 6. (I would really appreciate if I could get some more subscribers, you know. (Excessive use of parenthetical has become sort of my thing, hasn't it? (Maybe I'm just being delusional.)))))

Back to the main subject of my return (I know, I'm so self-centered (and self-conscious)), I've got to say, I'm really not sure I should be doing this. I honestly thought fanfiction would become a thing of my past, and I kinda have to focus on my current screenplay, and my LIFE, etc. I don't even like Total Drama anymore. BUT, most of my personal struggle with fanfiction writing as a concept and a practice is detailed in Courtney and Sierra's Very Personal Predicament, a one-shot I published a few hours ago to glowing critical reviews. Just kidding, only one person read it. (Thanks, JER.) So if you want to delve into the fascinating (bitter laughs) thing that is my psyche, particularly where my relationship with fanfiction is concerned, just go and read that.

What matters is that I have decided to give the fanfiction experience another go, with the very defined goal of writing something that I really think is worth the effort. (TDSA is where most of my hopes lie, but I've got a few other projects.) I am not sure at all this is gonna work, but it's a mostly free world and I might as well try. In any case, if I ever decide to leave again (and chances of that happening are not low; I do have lots of other things to worry about that might eventually make it hard or irresponsible for me to stay here), I will let you know, so people don't go "Hey, what the heck happened to JKL? Is he a mafia guy who got shot dead or something? Is that why he never shared anything about his personal life?" or anything. (I'm not a mafia guy, BTW. (But if I were, I wouldn't tell you. (Totally kidding. (Or am I? (Yes, I am. Duh.)))))

That's it. Expect further updates on the situation of Total Drama Socially Awkward in the near future. For now, I just figured I might give you guys a heads up. Wow, this turned out longer than I thought.

(TWSS.)