User blog:Brazilianbimbo/"The Last Text" FT. Katie

My 1st Fanfiction short story. I hope you all enjoy it (:

I am not stating that Katie is better, I just choosed to use Katie in the Fanfiction short story!

Katie: My BFFFL of 16 years “broke up” with me in a text. I knew something was wrong for months after the argument over boys, but I kept convincing myself it was selfish to take her often irritated and snappy treatment of me personally when she was dealing with some serious troubles. Turns out she felt I was one of the things “draining” and “exhausting” her. Her two texts to me said she thought I was a “good friend,” a “loving person,” and that I “didn't do anything bad,” but that she couldn't stop focusing on my "negatives" and that she wasn't her best self around me, because I “irritated her” and made her “loose her cool.” She said she knew she wasn't being a good friend and was hurting my feelings, but "there is nothing to fix, you are you," she said. How can i fix this? Is what always question myself when I fall asleep. But lying around isnt gonna solve anything.

I know in my heart that I gave at least as much as I took from the friendship and I was not a toxic friend by any definition of the term. I feel ashamed, like the girl who is overly understanding, giving, loving and loyal to a mean, self-centered guy who eventually dumps her because she is “too needy”. Along with the “I was a doormat” shame is also the embarrassment that other people who find out will think there is something wrong with me or that I must have done something to deserve this treatment. To add to all this is the burden of not being able to share how I’m feeling with most of my friends, or to completely cut ties, because I still have to work with her, and I don’t want our many mutual friends to feel uncomfortably stuck in the middle.

I’ll never agree with the mean and immature way she chose to do it, but I truly am thankful to her for ending the friendship. If being around me at the happiest, most confident, most successful and fulfilled point in my life so far is irritating for her, then her final true act of kindness was letting me go. Just looking back at the days when we both had a blast together. Is now locked in a box, hidin away from us. How i miss my BFFFL