User blog comment:Goldenshane/Mixed Emotions/@comment-3350823-20111224044505

I don't like to look back on the past much, because I tend to dwell on the negative and complain. This year has to be the worst year of my life (so far) and it really seemed to become that way towards the end of the year.

I've been going through hard family stuff and have been depressed. I've become a bit ruder and a little more inappropriate. This school year has been very horrible. I've been trying to figure out who I am and what's my future and I haven't found the answers. My family life has drastically changed too. And I got mixed up with this person. We bonded because we both felt like were outsiders and weird and like the same stuff. But they're kind of crazy and I really think they were using me to replace a friend they liked but left them to be popular. And now that I didn't live up to their expectations, I'm an annoyance. So now I lost my so called best friend. And I feel like I gave everything to that person, my friendships, my secrets, my dreams and mostly...my identity.

I'm so sorry to hear your dog died D: I know that hurt since you have a close connection to your dog but I hope you have fun with your new dog. I know it can't fill the void but maybe you can form a new bond different than with Shane who I know will be in your heart.

I'm not really comfortable talking about my beliefs or religion, but I think it's good that you have faith. I need to catch up in Fiji (I need to catch up on a lot of stories) but I'd like to read you Soul Calibur story. I don't know everything about the game, but I got the fourth copy and really liked it. As for girl advice, Lalainee is definitely who you should talk to.

Who knows? Maybe this year is rough because next year is going to be great! Since it's our last year. JK, I don't think (or I hope) 2012 is the end of the world.