User blog:Radical M/The Blog I Never Thought I'd Write

Yep, this is the blog that you've all been expecting. Warning: it might be kind of long, but I feel it's important.

I remember thinking a year or two ago of leaving the wiki, and honestly found the thought scary. That might sound weird, or even lame, but it's the truth. There was an attachment I had with all the people here that I couldn't describe. So the choice was kind of simple... I didn't leave.

Things change. It's hard to believe how much time has passed since I joined the wiki. How many friends I've made here...

To get to the point... I'm leaving the wiki and I don't know if I'll be coming back. I've thought about this decision A LOT and I just feel like it's time. I'm sure most of you are wondering why and I honestly wish I knew myself. First off, I'd like to point out that a few in chat thought that I was calling you boring. That was a completely unintentional comment and not what I think at all. I'm going to miss everyone here truly and I don't think you guys are boring, at all.

The best way I can describe it is a lack of motion. Recently, I've felt like my life has become too stagnant and routine. I was on here a lot last year because it was my freshman year and I had just moved to Connecticut. I had trouble making friends, which I had never really experienced before, so I turned to the wiki for support. But now it's sophomore year, there's more work, and I have made more friends and... I don't know... I guess in certain ways it's overwhelming.

A few months ago, I wrote a blog saying that I was done writing fanfics on the wiki. I mentioned it was because I thought I had improved upon my writing enough and I needed to take the next step in my writing "career." In a way, this feels like the same thing. My life is starting to improve and I want to take the next step. I feel like I serve real no purpose here anymore.

Anyways, I'm sure few of you want to hear me rant about my life anymore, so I guess I'm going to give my final goodbyes (If I don't mention you, don't cry, I love you too).

I guess I'll start with Sprink, even though he's not here anymore. He gets hate sometimes, but let's be honest, this wiki would barely exist without him, let alone be as successful as it is. Sprink was the first guy who talked to me when I joined the wiki and basically answered all my annoying questions. My writing would not be nearly as good as it became if it weren't for Sprink.

I guess I'll move on to Toad next. Toad, you're one of the funniest and most creative guys I know, Internet or not. I honestly don't remember much of the first time we talked, but I do know that somehow over time, we got to know each other better. If anything, someday I want to collaborate with you... on something. I might seem farfetched, but I honestly think it would be great.

I'll go with Reddy next. Reddy, I know we've had our fair share of fights, but you're still one of the best friends I made on the wiki. I'll pretty much take this time to apologize for anything I might have said that offended you. You have some of the best ideas on the wiki (and probably the most ideas :P). I know you're determined to finish a story on here, but in the end, I honestly don't think it matters. I know one day you'll make something amazing.

Bruno, you're one of the most fun guys to chat with on the wiki. I can't imagine having a dull conversation with you. You're a great friend and not to mention an amazing artist. Stay away from Mila Kunis. She's mine. >.>

Mana, just like the others I mentioned you're not only an amazing writer but you're a great friend too. Chatting with you was honestly the best part of most of my days last year. Thanks for being a great friend.

Jake, dude, you know you're one of my closest friends on here. You're awesome to talk to on chat and you know when to get serious, too. I know we'll be talking more after I leave.

OHF, you're honestly just a genuinely funny guy. And that's a big compliment considering I've never actually spoken to you in real life... or over video chat, for that matter. Talking to you on chat is honestly just plain fun. I'm going to miss you, dude.

MrD, I'm going to miss your sense of humor. Your rants are honestly one of my favorite things in the entire world. You're a really smart guy and I hope you get to do whatever it is you want to do with your life.

I'll end my goodbyes with Rhonda. Rhonda, I'll sound like a broken record at this point, but you are honestly just genuinely funny. A girl with a sense of humor as a great as yours definitely stands out and you're just awesome to chat with. Not to mention, you were always one of my most avid supporters so I think I owe you special thanks. I really hope, somehow, we get to collaborate in the future too.

And I'm going to miss a lot more of you, trust me. Gideon, Jay, Zoey, Dra, Trey, TBTDIF, Shane, Webly, Owe, Nalyd, Writer, Lindsay, AJ, and so many more.

I guess the title really sums it all up. I never really expected writing this blog because I never wanted to. As I'm typing this, I still really don't want to leave the wiki. I'm going to miss all of you more than you can imagine. But... part of me feels like it's time to move on. I hope every single one of you finds something that makes them happy and they have a prosperous life.

Stay radical.

Your friend, Radi Calm. (That one's for O. :P)