User blog:Thebiggesttdifan/A Depressing Blog for the Start of My Third Year

Hi, I'm TBTDIF, and to date I have made two contributions to this wiki: Totally Top Writer, and A Person. The first was made over two years ago. The latter was made just a few months ago and was my first step into recognition.

Sometimes I feel like being here for three years now is my only real bragging rights. What do I put on my Featured User ballots? "Hi, I'm TBTDIF, and I've been here for over two years--one of the first people here." That's really all I can do. I've done analysis and am a part-time story critic, but all I've ever done that got me recognition was A Person. Part of it's that I have trouble writing long-winded competition stories. The writing is hard to start and hard to continue. I've tried it a sort with Total Homesick Island, and it never got anywhere. I just get too bored.

Anyway, I started here on January 7th or 8th, 2009--I really can't remember--as an IP. My first edit was vandalism to Total Drama High School. I had no idea we couldn't add onto other stories, and I was banned for just three days. I predicted the final three of Total Drama Paradise correctly when we all thought it was the most amazing thing ever (it did outshine its limited competition, at least). I got to see camps on the TDIFF wiki, and all of them were just basic roleplaying. They created the Camps wiki a little later, maybe a few weeks after I joined, and at one point it was thriving and the main way new users found a home here. Now we've fled the scene and left it to the newbies.

I was here for Sunshineandravioli and Ricky490, two missing users who we're still trying to find (though I've tracked down Ricky490 from a blog comment and found he wrote awful fanfiction making fun of awful fanfiction at one point). I was in the first Total Drama Author and produced some horrible writing. I was in Total Drama Author 2. Then my mom died, and I got a brief reputation as a huge jerk. I got to see the first-year anniversary and Reddude show up. I got to see Sprink's awful writing and awesome writing. I got to see Spenny, who has quit--although I must confess I never fully read his stories. I was here before blogs, My Home, the new wiki skin, the discovery of IRC and Chatango. And now this feels like boasting, so I'll quit talking about this.

I'm not proud of Totally Top Writer. It's practically copied from TDI, but with a different theme and antagonist. At least I finished it. A Person I'm really proud of, and hope I can produce more things like that, but longer and more philosophical and psychological and alternate-history-ish.

I've seen a lot of users come and go. Our current batch of users is nice, but it sometimes feels like they're all just noobs because I've been here so long. Users years younger then me in wiki-age have grown up to be admins with full-fledged stories. But I just kept to myself, and to Chatango, which is better for conversations.

I actually have a competition fic in the works, but I'm not going to tell anything else because it's probably going to wither and die. They're just too hard for me to work on most of the time and I often get bored by them--I haven't even started the actual writing for this, but I hope I can get it out to you people sometime, even if it's years from now and half of you are gone.

But it feels good to have been here for three years. And I hope I'll still be here for four. Now, I'm going to crawl back into my corner and discuss pop music parodies with Chatango users.

To Chatango users: Never call me Dyna. I am only TBTDIF.

Signing off with a signature I don't think I've changed in over a year. Dark clouds all around, lightning rain is  pouring down!  01:50, January 9, 2012 (UTC)